Sam's Journal

I went to the movies today with my friend and her brother. I saw Mark there, It was a little awkward. (Not really sure why,) I didnt like it too much. Yea, so not in the mood for writing anything else. Maybe later. Bye

Yesterday was one of the saddest and most heartbreaking day I have ever had. I said goodbye to my boyfriend of 7 1/2 months because he moved. He was going to college anyways, so it was inevitably, going to happen, I just thought I could have those weekends with him when he came in to visit family, but if his family is with him he really has no reason to come back to Beckley to visit. So that leaves me with a question, the question on what am I going to do? And my answer? I have no idea. I just do not want to go through another situation that will leave me hurt again. (I may just have to though, and sooner than I want) I am not saying he isnt hurt also, because I know he is, it is just hard right now for both of us. Will I miss him? Yes I will, no matter how hard I can try and fool myself, I will miss him very much. But right now I am going to try and enjoy the summer and see what happens with everything in my life.

Enough sad right now, I Just got back from a cruise. It was the most amazing thing I have every done in my life. I experienced new things that I have never done before with people I have never met before, to snorkeling with fishes, to eating sushi, to staying out late, I wish I could have stayed longer. I got to go snorkeling in Nassau, it was beautiful, to see all the fish come so close to you and so many swim all around you it was like you could reach out and touch them and you wern't afraid. I also met a lot of new people there, some younger than me, some older than me, and some my own age. Everyone there was so nice that I felt like I fit in perfectly. I hung out with different groups each night, staying out tell 2-3 in the morning,listening to the live bands, dancing, and eating late night ice cream. It was something I would never get to do back home. And something I would never forget. But the one thing that was truly amazing was the view of the sky on the front of the ship. (yes, I know that is a sappy girl thing) The view will forever be imprinted in my head and will never leave. It will be something I will come to in my thoughts when I need to think of something peaceful, and I am sure that image will get me through alot of things this summer and school year. I know people say, what is the difference from the view there from the view right at home, but to experience it out on open water, with no lights anywhere, I would assume you would just have to see for yourself. Everything on the trip was so stress free, I didnt really have a care in the world. If I could go back next summer I would in a heartbeat.

Somehow, writing about my trip made me a little happier.

Bye <3

1. Who are you?
2. Are we friends?
3. When and how did we meet?
4. How have I affected you?
5. What do you think of me?
6. What's the fondest memory you have of me?
7. How long do you think we will be friends?
8. Do you love me?
9. Do you have a crush on me?
10. Would you kiss me?
11. Would you hug me?
12. Physically, what stands out?
13. Emotionally, what stands out?
14. Do you wish I was cooler?
15. On a scale of 1-10, how hot am I?
16. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
17. Am I loveable?
18. How long have you known me?
19. Describe me in one word.
20. What was your first impression?
21. Do you still think that way about me now?
22. What do you think my weakness is?
23. Do you think I'll get married?
24. What makes me happy?
25. What makes me sad?
26. What reminds you of me?
27. If you could give me anything what would it be?
28. How well do you know me?
29. When's the last time you saw me?
30. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
31. Do you think I could kill someone?
32. Do you think our friendship is getting stronger/weaker/or staying the same?
33. Do you feel that you could talk to me about anything and I would listen?
34. Are you going to put this on your LiveJournal and see what I say about you?

It is so beautiful outside today, All I want to do is be out there with the sun! After school, Lauren, Aaron, Lance and I went to the Woodcreast park and played volleyball, swung on the swings, and did the monkey bars. It was a lot of fun. It would have been more fun if someone would have called me back though :(

So this weekend I have no idea what I am going to be doing. My sisters are going camping so I will be home without distractions, which is pretty cool, very quiet, but cool.

Enough Is enough! Bye

Seniors last day was today, even though most everyone is excited that they are graduating they all look so sad. I dont think I can even count the number of people I saw cry today. I even cried, not really sure why, I think it is because everyone else around me was sad, so it made me cry. I'm not even sure how to express my feelings towards this "last day" I have never felt this way over the seniors leaving. I am pretty sure the reason I have such strong feelings this year is because I have became good friends with a lot of the seniors who are leaving and nobody wants to loose a friend. All I can say to those seniors (that arnt reading this most likely) is Good Luck with whatever comes your way and I love you!

Went to the longest recital ever tonight. It started at 7 and ended at 9. You may think that 2 hours isnt that long, but for me it is. I'm just not a good sitter, and anyone who knows me will agree. The bad part is, I have to sit through it again tomorrow night.

As for the fun on the weekend plans go, well they have gone, right out the window. You can not have fun without friends, (for me at least) And if all your friends are gone this weekend or have certain priorities they have to fulfill then thou shall not have fun. :(
Maybe something fun will happen tomorrow *here's for hoping*

Bye

So I thought last weekend was going to be a big "pick me up" but it turned out to be a big family activity. So who did something REAL fun this weekend? Not me! I am just really hoping this weekend is going to be fun. I have to go to two dance recitals though, but before and after I am FREE! So if anyone wants to keep me company at the recital you are more than welcome to.

I have so many mixed feelings about school right now, I want it to be over with so bad, but at the same time I know I am going to miss all the seniors I met this year, and the friends I dont get to see alot during the summer. And the BIG thing is.. Adam is leaving and I have no idea what is going to happen there. Lately all I just look forward to 3rd block, although Im not sure if the person I want to talk to in there even wants to talk to me :/

This week is west test, I have to go to Major Carpenter's room (never been there no do I know exactly where it is) So wish me good luck!

Until Next Time. Bye

For someone who doesnt like school, I sometimes wish I could stay all day. I didnt have a great day at school, but right now I am just getting really stressed out at home. I found out I cant take me exams early bc, well I dont know why, I just cant. I mean I have never taken them before, Mr. Lambert even said I could take them early and Plus I am taking the class over again next year!!!! Now that I screwed up in chemistry I have to take the bloody exam. The thing is I'm not even gonna be in the same country when the exam is given, Mom is extremely mad.... Oh and my mom doesnt think I can do anything right, and when I do anything it is only half done. So even if I dread my chem class I would gladly stay there for a little longer.

I just feel blah. I need a major pick me up. Hopefully it will calm down a bit before the weekend and I can get away. Any suggestions?? legal ones??

I cant for the life of me figure out what skit I want to do in Theater!!

Prom was last night. Everyone looked beautiful and hansom. I guess I liked my dress, even though Im not sure how well I looked in it (not very) I received some news last night after prom that I didnt really like, but I guess in time I will get over it. All in all I had a pretty nice time.

I got all my b-day presents now. I got a flip phone, and a purse from my parents, a pair of shoes, and a ring from my grandparents, Adam made me a cake, cassie paid for my nails to be done and wrote me a 2 page letter that I cried the whole way through reading it, and Mark made me a necklace. Thank you all for everything you did to make my b-day the best. I love you all!

Today everyone is coming over for a b-day/mother's day cook out. It should be fun... err... interesting!

Again thanks for everything you guys, I love you!!!!

HAPPY B-DAY TO ME :)

HAPPY SWEET 16 TO ME!!! :)